Missing.

I miss Texas. That's pretty much the only thing that's been on my mind for the past 2 months.
I miss having my own car and being able to take Faithy to the park to feed the ducks or to Sea World at the drop of the hat, i swear we must have spent more time at Sea World last year than anywhere else.. i miss it. I miss my grandma, i really, really, really miss my grandma. I miss having my friends close by. I miss just being able to go out with Beth & grab some lunch when there was nothing else to do. Or going shopping, there's nothing better than going shopping with a good friend. Or just going grocery shopping, i don't know why we'd go grocery shopping together but it was fun, even if the other people at Walmart thought that 4 screaming kids was a tad annoying. I miss being able to go out for a drink with friends and the little road trips to see the other hooch. I miss bow nights and staying at eachother's houses until i was too tired to drive home and would have to sleep on crappy futons. I miss all the fun things there were to do around SA, there's nothing to do and no where to go to here, even if i did have my own car still. I miss having neighbors that i could actually make conversations with, neighbor's whose kids my princess could play with. I miss being able to give Faith a good time. She misses her little friends, tells me so all the time and it just breaks my heart. I miss Faith's speech therapist, i know i won't be able to find one as great as Stephanie was. I miss May's cooking and playing wii and just talking the night away with her & Annie while Faith, Billy & Charlie ran around like wild children. I miss having someone to color my hair, as dumb as that sounds and as bad as my friends were at it, i miss it, and I'm sure it would come out awful if i tried it myself and my hair needs some coloring. I miss living in a cul-de-sac and Faith being able to ride her bike or drive her Jeep on the street whenever she wanted and without me worrying that there could be a car coming any second. I miss all the good food.. i could really go for some Whataburger right now.. or Taco Cabana, Pei Wei, Salsalitos or Ghengis. I miss the people, the people around here drive me nuts- one afternoon at the mall during a weekend and i leave with a migraine. Sounds awful but it's true. And did i mention i miss my grandma?
I know, i should be thankful for all we have. And i am, i swear i am. I know I'm lucky to have all 3 of us together again. I've been beyond blessed with an amazing husband & perfect daughter and i love every second i get to spend with then. We have a great house, i never thought that when we moved here we'd have a 4bedroom/3 bath 2 story house, i love it. I'm not a big fan of having to clean 3 bathrooms now but it's worth it. I do like having a really nice playground right in our backyard, so i can take Faith anytime i want. I just wish she had someone to play with. We're able to spoil the heck out of our princess whenever we want and i love that. We have our health, we have our love & we have God by our side wherever we are.
I know all about "counting your blessings" and i do. I know our family has been very blessed. But it still doesn't mean i can't miss good talks over some good food with some good friends.
I miss having a life.
The End..


I know that was probably the most depressing blog in the history of blogs. But i didn't really make this to entertain.. i made it to be able to have a place where i could just get my thoughts out and not go insane. And well, that's what was on my mind.